Since 2018 (3 years after writing most of the original content on this site) I’ve been struggling in my journey towards health again in mysterious and confounding ways. I’ve forgotten much of what I learned about myself and which I wrote about here. I’ve forgotten about the process of life as it moves through and inside a human body. I’ve forgotten how to cultivate the resilience I talked about in another part of this site. I’ve forgotten how to make the world a beautiful place and how to feed the living world around me. I’ve forgotten how to feel the earth. I’ve forgotten so many things.
This does not make me patently unqualified to help you. In fact, I imagine this personal “failing” is something of an offering to all of you who are trying hard to feel good and not always getting it right. Since beginning my study in this world of functional nutrition and lifestyle hacking, I’ve been inundated with messages from people with perfect bodies, perfect diets, perfect workout routines, perfect families, perfect smiles and oodles of money from tapping the vast internet marketing/sales funnel, which allows them to take perfect vacations and live perfect lives. They all seem to have cracked some secret code and it is . . . seductive.
But my roots are in the warmth of kitchens filled with friends, in the abundance of over-flowing gardens and pantries where there’s always a little too much of everything, in the thrill of adventure, in the smell of pine trees and snow and woodsmoke, in the smell of fresh rain on the soil below my bare feet, and in the smell of ozone generated by lightning, which is surely the hearty howling laughter of some unseen god remembering a good joke. My roots are in the earth.
I am still driven to find some answers and to feel better, but in the meantime, I am more driven to come back to what is real and true. To return to the essence that is my body as a reflection of the earth, which is, in this current time, also struggling. I am grateful for every step of the journey and I look forward to writing more about the many influences that have shaped my world view. This will surely be a process of coming home.
PS – This website has been a long time coming . . . a slow slog through the territory of googling how to do every little thing in WordPress. The writing is not difficult for me, but the technical aspects of building a WP site have been tedious at best and maddening at worst. And, here I am publishing my first blog post (once the google told me how to do it). Re-reading words I wrote back when I first published this site in 2015 has been a much needed reminder in my own personal journey. May it also be an offering to you in whatever journey you find yourself walking. Thank you for reading!
